Life...half filled half spilled

Where the Lost Ones Go

2010-06-10T19:02:00.000-07:00

Really am happy to finally have a chance see this video, it was nt released to public due to some of the more sensitive parts, but somehow one of the YouTube users managed to find it =D Great work!! Credits to Espend Lind Argentina

Both of the singers are hawt!!!! *Droolssss*

lol going crazy~~~

Will Power...

2009-11-07T08:04:00.000-08:00

The power of will... a power to be recognized by everyone... yet is the power that i done have...

Though the date of STPM is drawing nearer and nearer each day... the no. of paged i flipped through is less than the days away from the exam...

Suddenly my friend comes online and ask me whether i would like to join them for breakfast tomorrow morning and study from 10 till 5 at Serdang... I was stunned... It's been long since someone invited me to study with them... What's more amazing was the fact that the amount of time my friend spent on studying today suddenly made my mind blank...

Started from 2 at MPBJ library till 5, after that was Old Town White Coffee till 9, dinner, his house till 11.30...

So it was 2-5(3hours), 5-9(4hours), 9-11.30(2.30hours) minus mayb an hour and 30minutes of dinner, a total of 8 hours worth of studying... This made me feel so depressed... why others could do it while i cant... Am i any different...? NO!! So why am i not doing it?

Tomorrow i shall join my friends and start this hardcore studying session... this really made me hate myself... COME ON!!! SNAP OUT OF IT ALREADY!!!

Lovestory and Viva La Vida

2009-04-30T09:18:00.000-07:00

Long Long TIme

2009-03-30T08:34:00.000-07:00

Its been a while since i blog... mostly bcoz of exams and homeworks... haiz... really need to blog constantly if i were to remember what i blog before... i totally forgot all the contents in my last post... In the end i wasted more time... haiz...

though there are improvements in this term's exam... it still aint enough to help me get hold of my future with asurance... i see how ppl complain abt most of their life, how i wish i can do the same but i wont... coz i know most of the time its my own fault for making those mistakes...

just a little bring up my post thingy... nothing much...

5SF1 gathering

2009-02-13T06:36:00.000-08:00

todays's the day before valentines... also the day before merentas desa... and also the day that we 5SF-ians gather!!

Damn, it was such a reminiscence sight.... watching all my ex class mates, gather 1 by 1. Cant really write anything about it coz i wanna sleep edi, get rdy for tomorrow's cross country (my stomach is feeling abit unpleasant coz of the steamboat...)

Overall, none of them changed physically, but alot of them are chasing their own dreams alr. Their studies are all good, hearing them discuss about their exam (ACCA) and stuff, really makes me wonder... how much time have i wasted? all of them are growing into mature adults, doing whats gd for themselves... This gathering isnt only for recalling who my classmates were or keeping in touch with them, its letting me know that ppl are changing to improve themselves even more, they are entering the social world, the society...

Damn... really gotta get things going alr. time to sleep... and hope that tomorrow i'll be able to get a position within the top 30s...

On the day of 13th February, a day full of special memories,
The stars of 5SF1, starts gathering 1 by 1.
It's been long since we met, it's finally the time to chat,
Our paths may never cross again, thats why we're here, for our friendship is priceless, just like our dears.

Merentas Desa

2009-02-07T06:55:00.000-08:00

Ok... my last year in CHS... really last liao @@... so its the last time for me to get something in merentas desa. Got influenced by Rex Lee a.k.a Herng Guang, he kept encouraging me to run in the upcoming cross country event... thought abt it for a while... then promised him that i would join him.

the training was really tiring... ran on both days... thursday (red house) and friday (purple house)... and purple house members are crazy... always setting a higher aim ea week, red house ran 3 rounds only while purple house ran 5 rounds... well me and rex and william ran 7 rounds on de last week of training... tired like hell... but of coz my spd was much slower than both of them... i was just starting de 7th round and they reach the end of 7th round edi... @@

Hope i really can get into the top 30, top 15 preferbly XD gamabteh!!!

Great Show Great Dinner

2008-12-28T04:27:00.000-08:00

Went for MAMMA MIA! THe Smash Hit Musical today with hern ee, his mom and a relative and both of my cousins. It was at istana budaya and it was packed with ppl. we arrive there around 2 and the parking was almost full!! I watched the movie 1st and its quite similar to the movie. Our seats weren't great coz the ticket was qutie expensive, cheapest was RM 163 @@, the 3rd floor. Didnt get to see their faces up close, but was gd enough! The music was great, the synthesiser was conducting with his head!!! lol, was kinda funny watching his head go up down left right. Shall leave the music comments to hern ee XD

Really enjoyed it, the difference between a musical and a movie is the audience get to give their response to the actors... where as a movie... well u cant really scream or cheer at the big flat screen can u? hahaha... the audience were giving a really good response. lots of obseen stuff, but it was those stuff that made it funny and interesting haha...

When we were abt to leave, i touched my pocket and............ MY PHONE WAS MISSING!!!! Not AGAIN!!!!!! then immediately i search around my seat and found my phone lying on de carpet floor.... Last time i lost my phone the same way i did today, and it was the same place too.... Istana Budaya... @@

After the show, we went for dinner at chulan square. Went into a restaurant called the Gaucho Grill. An argetina steakhouse. Their T-Bone and fish are superb!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! expensive, but worth every single cent, T-Bone Steak was RM 79 and the Fish was RM56 @@ and their milkshake is also great, very very very verrrrrrrrrryyyyyyyyyyy smooth!!!! Rm 12.50 @@

A good thing is that it includes a soup, it was pumpkin soup, and a salad bar, buffet style too!!

After finish eating our dinner only i remmebered to take photos of our dinner... but it was too late... all went down our stomachs lol Anyway, a great show with a great dinner!!

PS: GO WATCH AUSTRALIA THE MOVIE, ITS NICE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

6th form trip

2008-11-27T05:11:00.000-08:00

Taman negara trip was GREAT!!
Tiring but fun!! gonna compile all the photos together 1st then only send to everyone, so photos will have to wait.

1st day: went for night jungle walk, saw lots of insects, and 2 stick bugs mating LOL and a deer drinking water at a pond.

2nd day: jungle trekking, canopy walk, rapid shooting and visit the natives

3rd day: Rapid shooting, canoeing and cave exploration

4th day: Get along time with everyone XD and go home =)

will le the photos do the talking, coz really too much to say alr.
Special Thanks to Mr. Roslan aka Kalui (i think) for being our nature guide, the wisest among all de guides, and the oldest of coz lol. Johari for bringing up de crowd, and of coz the commitee members for organizing de trip, great!!

Besides learning all de nature stuff, i also witness the chinese saying, 活到老学到老
Mr. Roslan is a married guy, 37 yrs of age i thinik, but pack with all kinds of knowledge and still learning. Had talent in mechanical stuff, it wasnt really popular during the old days, so he study abt plants and fishes which was his 2nd favourite after graduating from a mech uni to earn a living. one of the authors for a herbs and plants book and their uses which cost around 90++, still doing researches abt new plants now. gonna publsih another book abt fishes next year, he have a pool which contains all kinds of fish from taman negara that he also research. currently know 3 languages, malay, eng and arab. learing german, soon gonna learn french and another 2 more language which i forgotten. 7 languages in total. been to africa, czech, holand, england, and a few more that i forgot.

the point is that he is still learning so much despite his age. He's a really great and wise guy. really inspired me with his knowledge and his determination. hope that i can do it too!!

Away

2008-11-23T06:23:00.000-08:00

Gonna go to taman neagara from 24/11/08 till 27/11/08, monday till thursday =)
Not gonna bring camera coz scared camera spoil or lost later... raining season now... rain 24/7 dun think gonna have a lot of pics to take ba.

hopefully its fun la... coz now having a bad feeling, need to bring so many stuff there... so mafan....

bye bye =)

F.I.C.P Update

2008-11-08T19:32:00.000-08:00

Added a few songs to my playlist

Album: Secret Garden - Dreamcatcher
Songs:
1. Song From A Secret Garden
2. Sona
3.Passacaglia

Misc: When She Loved Me (From Toy Story 2)

Hope u guys would enjoy it =)

Pleasant Dreams...

2008-11-06T06:28:00.000-08:00

Yesterday night, i had a dream, a dream so real that i really wished it was actually happening.

Remember the last post abt a pleasant dream? It was the same person, but only closer... Somehow you were working in a restaurant... i was there eating... suddenly this guy was introducing me a dish, which looks like strips of plastic strings, he said when u fry them it would turn into salty chewing gum... i was like... =.=" what? but u actually agree with the stranger. So i believed in u and tried it, then suddenly a cage popped up and separating me and u...

i felt puzzled... but u were smiling... ur smile comforted me, made me relax... i was holding out my hand brushing ur cheek, and u did the same to me... the touch felt so real... then our face was pressing against each other... yet the steel bars separate us... and gradually our distance grew... ur smile slowly fading... ur figure slowly disappearing... and u were gone... and i woke up...

how i wanted to yell ur name... yet i cant... trying to tell u how much i treasure our friendship... how sorry i am to u... but everything was just a dream... something that my mind really wants it to happen but know its impossible...

*just 1 2 be 2gether...

Farewell party 08

2008-11-01T06:05:00.000-07:00

lol, i feel so odd when writing this post.

Woke up around 8 and took my time.... went to school around 9.15.... in the end i missed almost all of the performance, form 1 to 4, saw a bit of form 4 performance and.... =.=" i still think our last performance was de best XD

Heard that a lot of members did all kinds of bizarre stuff... would get the video and have a look.
Received a lot of thanks from the form 5s... lol me and gabriel were like... dunno how to respond haha...

the idea of decorating the backdrop with those christmas lights, having a slide show of the form 5s while they were giving their talk was really special, but can improve with the presentation and the backdrop.

sher mann came, later seou yuen, after that hern ee and lastly hua chern i think.
sher mann was having fun with his camera then went ciak ciak ciak... seou yuen had us do another survey... btw li yar was there too.

the few of us stayed until the talk was over only sher mann had to leave early coz of class. Was really suprised when they suddenly ask me and gab to receive a gift from their form... feel so 不好意思...

gabriel got a new pair of sun glasses and those accessories that those rappers wear with a letter G! it was really nice.... and i got.... a Picasso shirt.... with bruce lee on it... they wanted to make me look muscular... which didnt happen lol, the shirt was just nice hahaha... they always give me all kinds of weird stuff haha, but its these weird stuff that make them so special =) thanks again!!! really feel touched when u guys gave me the present... its ur farewell and i was receiving presents as well... >.<

took lots of photos with brass section lol will try to get those pics and upload them...
overall not a bad day, missed the performance but still ok. hehe all de best to this year's form 5 and good luck in ur spm =)

2008-10-31T05:43:00.001-07:00

Friend or Foe

2008-10-29T01:10:00.000-07:00

Went for hair cut this morning, didnt even eat a proper breakfast, just drink a cup of milo and we're off. Went all the way down to KL to have my hair cut. (dunno why some ppl are so shocked to hear this...)

Not sure how much time has passed by i know i was kinda sleepy, coz of yesterday's battle tanks zzzz. Happy with the haircut and we went for lunch.

On the way there my cousin took me to a place where i once told her that it was my friend's. It was my friend's family shop and his brother was taking care of it at that moment. Told my cousin that it was my friend's brother and some background info about his family... then it struck me again...

Is he still my friend? Does he still consider me as his friend? Tried to communicate with him but no response... Why did i say it was my friend's brother? I guess i still take him as a friend. Wanted to buy something from the shop but something held me back... Fear? but fear of what? feeling awkward? mayb...

Mayb next time i return, the feeling i get may be different... and i hope so too...

1st tag....

2008-10-27T20:07:00.001-07:00

The last person who tag you is?
- Hern Ee!!

What relationship of you with him/her?
-Primary school/secondary school/bandmate/buddies

You 5 impressions towards him/her.
a) Smart
b) Hardworking
c) Mature
d) Starightforward
e) Good at convincing ppl!!!

The most memorable thing that she/he had done for you.
-Always inviting me to special events, not forgetting me XD

The most memorable thing that he/she has say to you.
-Doesnt really matter as long as i remmeber my friend right? =)

If he/she becomes your lover, you will…
-Hmmm... is this even right... @_@ of coz i would love my lover and take care of my lover lol

If he/she becomes your enemy, you will
-find out whats the reason and try my best to amend the problem.

If he/she becomes your lover , he/she has to improve on..
-Flexible i guess

If he/she becomes your enemy , the reason is...
-I did something terrible...

The most desirable things to you to do to him/her
-Continue to enjoy life, sports, outing

The overall impression to he/her is
-A helpful person in many ways, a person to be treasured

How do you think the people around you will feel about you?
-Smile often but talk very less, doesnt involve much...

The character for you for yourself is?
-Thinking about lots of stuff but nvr really voice it out... mostly to avoid conflict...

On the contrary , the thing you hate about yourself is?
-Knowing the problem and the way to solve it but doesnt execute it...

The most ideal person you want to be is?
-A person thats able to help anyone in need...

For the person who cares and likes you, say something about them.
-Thanks for your care all the while, i will appreciate every bit of it.

Ten people to tag:
1. Desmond Tong
2. Gabriel
3. Jeffrey
4. Li May
5. Joanne
6. Nicole
7. Soo Yong
8. Wai Kean
9. Yu Ling
10. Sue Ping

Who is no.2 having relationship with?
-Er... his oboe??? currently finding 1 too LOL

Is no.3 a female or a male?
-The Gay word says it all

If no.7 and no.10 be together would it be a good thing?
-I'm not sure... hopefully it will be

How about no.5 and 8?
-haha 100% good, they are really close and i envy them sometimes...

What is number 1 studying for?
-If i remember correctly, should be something to do with bio ba >.<

When was the last time you have chat with them?
1,2 today, 3 last night 4,5,6,7,8,9 been a while, 10 before the school holidays XD

Is number 4 a single?
-still is but i'm sure not 4eva right such a gd gal =)

Talk something about no.2.
-Very self-absorbed... perfectionist... funny sometimes, a talented pianist, hopefully he changed his mind set and listen to opinions of others. A nice guy overall =)

1st tag in my life lol. hope its done correctly >.<

Taking Advantage...

2008-10-06T03:45:00.000-07:00

I am not sure about others... but to me, having the ability to gain something anytime, anywhere and anyhow makes me take advantage of it... a very simple example is the library near my house...

Its a few minutes walk from my house, a conducive place to study, lots of reference books, air conditioned and quiet most of the time. Was planning to study there, but i forgot to bring some of my notes to do my work... and i was lazy to go back to my house to get it, though it was just a few minutes walk. So i ended up reading newspaper over there.

After spending around 1 hour and 30 minute in the library I was shivering already... Decided to go back home. On my way out, i visited the 2nd floor and found my classmates, Zi Wei and Yen Fern. Was quite surprised to see them there, asked them what time were they gonna go home, they said 7pm. Then it struck me...

They were going to stay in the library for long hours because it was troublesome for them to get there and cant afford to waste anytime, while I on the other hand get to go to the library anytime i want.

On my way back, i was thinking what was the longest hour i stayed in the library. I think not more than 3 hours, yet others can stay from morning to evening.... I don't visit the library often, just like the others, but the fact that my house is soooo near makes me wanna go home early, others are forced to stay...

I know i don't have to stay for long hours, quality is more important than quantity, long hours does not necessary mean i would study more but i must at least make it a habit of going there often and really study... my attitude towards studying are.... questionable... It's time to change then...

Library is just an example, there are many more cases that are similar... Things that are easily acquired are often not treasured... only when we lose them would we start to realize it's important...

Reunion

2008-09-15T08:07:00.000-07:00

After rushing my chinese assignment, i had my early dinner and was preparing myself for a gathering. This special gathering is to celebrate Gabriel's birthday!!! Odd enough i had to ask the birthday boy to fetch me to Hern Ee's house >.< [sorry gab, ur bday still need to b driver]

As soon as we reach Hern Ee's house, his mother fetched us to Sunway Pyramid(thank you Mrs.Lim!!) On de way there gab was showing me his pictures taken during his Port Dickson trip last weekend and played with the Macro function in his camera.... lol how lame of us... XD

But...

Before we headed for SP, we had to detour to fetch Nicholas from Taylors[he changed his hairstyle ... again... XD]

Once inside de Pyramid of Sunway, Mrs. Lim went shopping while de 4 of us went and look for Sie Lein and Yee Shuian. Pat was the latest to arrive besides Hollie which was stuck in a traffic jam while Patricia live a few roads away from SP.... tsk tsk Pat XD

Dunno why our form always have this kind of problem... that is debating over which restaurant we should go... 6 years has passed and yet this problem persists... At the end we decided to go for Itallianisse (is it spelled correctly?) As usual we let Nicholas do the ordering (he's familiar with all kinds of high class delicacies) while we do the chit chatting XD and Pat ordered a drink named YELLOW BIRDIE!!!! hahaha so funny de name... and it reminded me of Gabriel's nick-name, Tweety Bird!!! lol

The food was filling... and healthy in a way... Pasta filled with cream and tomato red sacuce... (again correct me if i'm wrong), Caesar salad, fried cuttle fish, bread with olive oil and vinegar... garlic bread with sour tomato bits....lol and a delicious egg custard with a layer of sugar on top of it... dunno the name of it... We took bits of each and every food and put it onto a plate specially for Hollie as she was late...

After our dinner, we sang a birthday song for gab's birthday which is on de 16th. took some photos of us fooling around and ended the gathering with Sie Lein going off early for family dinner.

Overall it was a great reunion with our form, though some weren't able to make it due to political issues and family problems. Hope that there will be more of this kind of gathering in de future, or maybe even trips that last longer... haha really look forward to our next gathering!!! cheers!!

Reminiscence III

2008-09-03T07:05:00.000-07:00

A world without you, I can't move forward,
I would feel so strange, empty and awkward.
I try my best to live like the rest,
Like going through a heart aching quest.

Both of you I will never forget,
For losing you guys is my biggest regret.
They have been labeled by things I adore,
So every time I see them I would recall.

One of them is the new BM 5 series,
For this car holds many of our memories.
Another is a song about a letter,
For it reminds us of our Christmas gather.

Time is running out for all 3 of us,
Our path may never cross from this day on wards.
Though it seems impossible, I never stopped hoping,
That one day there's a photo, with the 3 of us smiling.

The failed Nation?

2008-08-06T05:26:00.001-07:00

This is an e-mail i receive from a friend and would like to share with everyone...

Please read this email as it is very well-written and
easy-to-understand….especially the last few paras in red which makes a
lot of sense.

where is our direction for our next generation..?

Greetings to all,

For those who started work around 1973,

a 1.3 Litre Japaness car was RM 7000

Today the equivalent is.... let's say RM 60000...........8.5 times

In 1973 a double storey house was about RM 45,000..or less Today it is
about RM 300,000............6.6 times

(It was advertised in a school magazine at 37,000, Taman Lumba Kuda)

This makes it 8.1 times

In 1973 an Engineer's pay was RM 1000

Today it is about RM 2000 +/-............2 times....

From 1973 to 2008........35 years......what is the Trend.?

Bearish !!!!

In a stock market when the trend is bearish , what do we do?..Exit !!!

When a country's trend is bearish what do we do?

This Bearish trend is more difficult to turn around as compared to the
stock market.

I have used these 3 items House, Car & Salary as a measurement of the country' s

performance for the past 35 years....

Foreigners also ask about these 3 items to gauge our standard of living.

There is a book I saw in MPH bookshop entitled :

Malaysia : The Failed Nation

some of you may be interested to read it.

I agreed with the writer.....

This morning I was having Coffee at McDonald ( now the coffee..100 %
Arabica beans..is quite good@ RM 2.90....free refill !!. I asked how
much per hour is their pay?

RM 3.00 ! x 8 hours = RM 24 per day... x 25 days = RM 600 per month

My daughter works part-time during her University days..she worked at
Gloria Jeans Coffee.... the pay ? Australian $ 14.00 ( @ 3.15 = RM 44
per hour.....x 8 = RM 352 per day !!! x 25 days = RM 8800

13.3 times more !!!!! ......Price of houses in Perth is about the same in KL

Price of cars are about 23 %
cheaper...in Perth.( Australia )

I think more and more people are becoming aware of this Bearish trend.

Developed country by 2020?...means High income country

Let's look at some as of year 2005 ( Financial Times )

USA GNP per capita US$ 35400

UK GNP per capita US$ 25510

Australia GNP per capita US$ 19530

Singapore GNP per capita US $ 20690

These are developed countries by income measurement

Malaysia 's GNP per capita US$ 3540

Year 2020..developed country?

Really...a sad story.

Worrying Trends, isn't it??

Ringgit sliding further and further under BN

Gan | Jul 8, 08 4:03pm

Recently, I interviewed some fresh graduates applying for jobs with my
engineering company. I accepted two applicants on a starting salary of
RM1600. It struck me as odd that 15 years ago, I myself started work
as a fresh graduate engineer for the same pay.

Indeed, if you compare the salaries of graduates now and 15 or even 20
years ago, you'll find little difference but that their purchasing
power is vastly different. It's the same story when you compare
salaries of shop assistants, office staff, factory workers and others.

To compound the effect of inflation, the ringgit has depreciated
greatly against all major currencies. The real income of most
Malaysians has moved backwards.

This is why many Malaysians suffer under the petrol hike. The root of
the problem is that our real incomes have shrunk in the face of
inflation and depreciated currency.. Malaysians have not been spoiled
by subsidy but are unable to move out of the time lock of stagnated
and depreciated incomes.

If you compare the per capita incomes of Singapore , Hong Kong , Taiwan
and South Korea , they are a few multiples of ours although at
independence all these countries were the on the same economic level
as Malaysia .

What has gone wrong? We were the rising star of East Asia , a country
rich in natural resources with the most promising potential.

The reason is massive corruption, plundering of resources, wastage of
funds for huge non- economic projects, anti-public interest deals with
politically-linked companies and passing-of-the -buck to the man in
the street..

Four decades of NEP where education, economic and employment policies
are defined by race ensured that meritocracy took a back seat.

Our university standard has declined and the today best and brightest
of our youths emigrate to escape the racial inequility only to
contribute to the economies of foreign lands.

The reputation of our judiciary which was held in high esteem
worldwide has sunk so low that foreign investors now insist on
arbitration in Singapore in case of any dispute.

We also have a slew of oppressive laws such as the ISA, OSA, Uuca and
PPPA which stifle free speech and are designed to keep the ruling
parties in power.

We have become less attractive to foreign investors and now lag behind
our neighbours in Asean for foreign direct investment. Even some
corporations who have established themselves here are moving out.

All the economic and social malaise cannot help but affect the value
of our currency. The strength of a country's currency is after all, a
reflection of its fundamentals.

Furthermore, Bank Negara has a policy of weak ringgit to help
exporters, never mind the burden on the common folk. The government is
pro-corporation, not pro-rakyat.

While the poor and middle-class are squeezed, an elite group gets
breathtakingly rich. We have the distinction of having the worse
income disparity in Asean. A re-distribution of wealth is under way
from the poor and middle-class to a select group of
politically-connected elite.

The end result of this re-distribution will be a small group of
super-rich while the majority are pushed into poverty and the
middle-class shrinks. This is what happens when the rich gets richer
and the poor get poorer.

There is much that is wrong with Malaysia . The responsibility for
pulling the country backwards can be laid squarely at the door of the
ruling regime. It is BN's mis-governance, racial politics and culture
of patronage which has seen the country regress economically and
socially.

We seem to be sliding down a slippery slope, further down with each
passing year of BN's rule. Another five years of BN rule and we'll be
at Indonesia 's standard under Suharto. Another 10 years and we'll be
touching the African standard. What a way to greet 2020.

Is there any hope for Malaysia ?

Faced with the reality that BN will never change, many Malaysians
desperate for change turn their lonely eyes to Anwar Ibrahim.

Pakatan Raykat has promised to treat all races fairly, to plug
wastage, fight corruption, reform the judiciary and make Malaysia more
competitive.

But some have questioned whether we can trust Anwar and his loose
coalition of disparate parties..

The question is not whether we can trust Anwar and Pakatan Rakyat but
whether we can afford not to.

Can we afford another ten years of BN's misrule?

Back to studying...

2008-08-04T07:01:00.001-07:00

My marching days are officially over.... though the achievements weren't de best, but i really enjoy the whole process of performing with them once more and have no regrets ^^

Lots of ppl say that i should be free with the competition over, but they overlook one thing.... I HAVE EXAMS IN 1 WEEK'S TIME... to make it worst i missed around 2 weeks of class... !@#$%^&

Lol currently trying to keep cool and stay focus... having a positive mind to try my best... and not flunk it... which brings me to the point of studying... Some ppl study for their own future, some for their parents, some i dunno what they study for... swt... Me ar... the current thing that keeps me going aint really my parents, its the things i want to achieve in de future, not an occupation but things i could do with my knowledge rather than just working on de same thing over and over again.

I know its childish but i hope that i can work whenever i want with a stable income that can maintain a higher standard of living... Sounds like a CEO/Director's position eh... lol thats what i want coz i dun wish to work my life away, and not able to accomplish anything at all. Helping the ones around me, spending time with them... ok its getting a bit far... lol

Back to reality... COUNTDOWN TO EXAMS: 6 DAYS

Colorguards....

2008-07-13T03:28:00.000-07:00

I joined CHSB again in 2008, but this time as a Colorguard or also known as CG.
At 1st it was quite hard indeed as this section is still new to all of us, none of us know anything abt it. But to bring out this year's program, CG is needed to enhance the visuals, make it more INCREDIBLE!!! With the help from P'Tuo we manage to think of something to complete the show and won 1st place in the state competition. As always, there will be room for improvement and we really have lots of things that needs to be polished/changed. But before anything happened... A shocking news came and took away my position as a CG...

I'm not complaining abt this matter, its just that i want to write something abt leaving the CG group, to show that i really wish to join them but cant. I miss the times we had together, joke around, train till midnight 1.30am, shouting at each other, supporting each other... Ah... its really hard to imagine i'm not one of them... Sigh... So whoever thats gonna replace me, better make sure he/she performs well, if not i'm really gonna scold de person, remind him/her what a good opportunity it is and he/she is wasting time repeating mistakes over and over again...

I have some photos of the group... i really miss performing with u guys... All de best and enjoy!!

[Mid:Kang Shyan / Side: Jing Chuan]

[Group Photo 1]
[1st row: Gabriel, Jia Shan, Jing Chuan, Shea Shin, Kang Shyan & Jared]
{Mid: P'Tuo}

[Group Photo 2]
[2nd row: Kelvin, Kar Soon, Me, Ying Hau, Kar Yee, Chee Seng, Alyssa, Hui Ting, Soo Theng, Bing Hong]

Reminiscence II

2008-06-20T01:34:00.000-07:00

My true identity is what I conceal,
For all would be shocked if it was revealed.
My desire for you will always be strong,
But it would also be forever wrong.

To sense your sadness and being so helpless,
Makes my heart feel so sour and restless.
What I can do is what I have done,
The response I get will always be none....

You, I can't have, but there are others,
And they will always treat me like brothers.
They may not know my true emotion,
But being with them I need no caution.

Car Business

2008-05-12T01:34:00.000-07:00

After returning home from school, i went for my 1st driving lesson!! I didn't even have the time to bath and the instructor came. Took a hamburger made by my aunt and hope onto his car and off we go~~

He taught me all the basics 1st, most of it are just adjusting stuff, like mirrors, seat and etc. Then he taught me how to change gear, from free to 1st to 2nd to 3rd to 4th to reverse. Gave me around 5 mins to get myself used to it. I'm gonna skip all the part where i turn round and round and round near my house area till i got used to the gears and stuff and straight to the exciting part.

After going 4 rounds around my housing area, he asked me to drive it out to the main streets. At 1st i though he was just gonna let me drive the main streets around my area too, so i didnt say anything and in we go to the main streets with lots and lots of cars. After that he told me to go to the round about and go 12 o'clock... when he said the word 'round about' immediately i said HAR!? so fast go round about alr!? then he said: " well ur gonna learn it anyway, y not learn it in the 1st lesson?" my heart was racing and though what he said was true also, so i didnt care abt my doubts and enter the round about. Luckily the car engine didnt die, just loud acceleration noises indicating that my synchronization of clutch and the acceleration pedal is not good. He asked whether i was scared and nervous, of coz i said yes, then he add on, dun worry u get to practice again, another round about is coming up, i said nothing...

After the 2 round abouts... guess where was i. I was at federal high way!!!! Man, having cars behind me that wants to go faster but cant makes me so nervous man. The instructor told me to ignore them, but when i look at the rear mirror and find out that theres a car behind me, i always tend to increase my speed, if the distance in front is far enough. After driving at the highway for abt 2~3 mins, i liked the feeling of driving at high way with flowing traffic.

Soon we reach Kuala Lumpur!!! The heart of Malaysia where loads of traffic come and go. It was all going well until i reach a junction turning left with traffic lights on my right. It was a road with 3 lanes. The left most lane goes left where as the middle and right lane goes forward with traffic lights. Cars were queuing the traffic light lane while i was cruising along at my left lane. SUDDENLY THIS TAXI DROVE OUT FROM THE QUEUE AND WENT INTO MY LEFT LANE!!
I WAS LIKE STUNNED AND HIT THE BREAKS. Luckily i was cruising not speeding... was slow enough to allow the taxi cut right in front of me.

Nothing much happened after that, just that i got stuck in a mini traffic jam, lasted for like 2 mins lol, got to learn slopes too. Now need to learn 3 point turn and parking. My lesson ended at 4 and started at 2, thats the reason why my left leg feels so uncomfortable, 2 hours of having ur right leg suspended just to b ready to press the clutch so the car engine wont die.

Since i chose Car Business as my title for this post, might as well talk abt the cars that i like before and now.

In my primary school days, i always thought that I should buy cars that are made from our own country, local cars. So my 1st aim was a Proton Perdana.

[can you believe this is a Proton perdana!? COOL!!]

I know u might think ' Har? Only Perdana ar?' Lol, thats just the dream for my primary school.
In secondary school, i found out that Hern Gene's car is quite a nice car too, Peugeot 207 [i think]. So i went online to search for Peugeot cars, and i saw my 2nd dream car, Peugeot 407

[Hern Gene's Car but its in blue]

[ I like long and elegant cars~~~ ^^]

Though i like the 407, i always find that BMW cars are sweet!! coz of their special headlights and designs that make them look so stylish. The 5 series has always been a nice car but to me some parts of it looks a bit less striking then then the other series. One day i went to Sie Lein's house and saw this BMW brochure, or a book about BMW cars and flip through the pages and found my 3rd dream car, BMW M6!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[5 series]

[BMW M6]
[A picture is worth a thousand words]

It may seem impossible to acquire this car but hey, its dreams that drives us to do something and NEVER underestimate the power of dreams, mind u its not Honda ah lol. Must thank Sie Lein for letting me know abt this car and Jye Wei for making me think abt this car. We always hear the phrase nothing is impossible, impossible is nothing. One day that car is gonna be mine!!

The Beginning of an Unknown End

2008-05-08T18:49:00.000-07:00

My school life is starting all over again, but this time its not gonna be like my previous school days anymore. Why? Let's see...

1st: I joined Amway!! Why? Coz I give myself a chance to experience a whole new way of living. Wanna know more? Come for 1 of our OPPs then you'll know. Most people say its gonna be hard, but hey, there's nothing in this world that doesnt require sacrifices. Ok, enough abt Amway, later people say i promoting Amway on my blog @_@

2nd: I joined CHSB again!! as a colour guard... It wasnt easy when making this decision, much have been taken into consideration, like my studies, parents approval, my friends opinions and etc. But somewhere in my heart tells me that i want to join, to feel how is it like to learn something new and yet its something old. New as in the skills of a colour guard and old as in being with the band again. Studies is something that's within our control, but emotion isnt. I dont wan to feel " Ow man, I SHOULD HAVE JOIN THEM!!". There is only WANT or DONT WANT, there's no CAN or CANNOT. So if i wan to study, i will score well in my form 6, with or without the band.

3rd: well actuaclly there's no 3rd lol. Just a sum of the previous 2. So its

Form 6 + Amway + Band= Busy life/Colourful life

So its time to get busy people!!

Life

2008-04-26T09:19:00.000-07:00

Life is like a bucket of water...

1. Knowledge

At the beginning, the bucket is empty, not a drop of water is in it, just like the life of a baby, innocent, knows nothing about this world. But as we age, or should i say grow, we learn stuff, filling our life with precious moments, knowledge, people and etc, like filling up a bucket of water... The size of the bucket we hold depends on how we spend our lives. It may be small, it may be big, it all depends on us... We may seek knowledge everyday to equip ourselves for a better future, hence filling our life with more precious lessons of life & information or we may slack around, waiting for the day to pass by... doing nothing to help us improve, for ourselves, our friends, our families and our future generations... like a bucket of stagnant water... being a breeding place for mosquitoes.

2. Choices

Every human being is imperfect, nobody is perfect... thats what makes our life colourful and interesting. When we fill a bucket with water, we tend to spill it and fill it again, just like our life.
Everyone makes mistakes... and once we do, we lose something. While holding the bucket of water, we may slip or trip, losing some of the water inside the bucket. Just like in real life, when we make mistakes, we tend to lose something, be it small or big, minor or major, something is still gone. Now, a person that is optimistic will refill the bucket after spilling it, just like in life we try to change ourselves to be better or try to undo the damage we have done, to replace what was lost, or at least to prevent it from happening again. A negative person would continue to blame, either himself/herself or other people for the mistakes, not doing anything about it, and as life goes on, the water in the bucket keeps on getting lesser and lesser with each mistake done, at the end nothing is left, just like a lifeless person, doing nothing to make his/her life better. So, in life we have choices, nothing is for certain. Anything can happen anytime anywhere, its just up to us whether we want to make it happen [good situations] / prevent it from happening [bad situations] or just wait for the stuff to happen.

*Some mistakes in life can never be undone, meaning when u lose something... u lose it forever... but its still up to us whether we want to continue moving forward or linger in the past, blaming ourselves for the mistake when we can move on and tell other people so others would not repeat the same mistake again.

Life is like a bucket of water, its filled and spilled as we live... until the day we die. Sometime the water we lose might be a lot to be refilled, sometimes near impossible to fill it again to that level, but we can always refill it drop by drop, its just up to us whether we want it or not.

Hence my blog, Life... half filled half spilled

Cut from the outside world

2008-04-11T19:46:00.000-07:00

Sorry for not updating... PC got fried by lightning...

Realize

2008-03-17T02:06:00.001-07:00

SPM results made me realize a lot of stuff, much that i didnt know. Some about studies, some about my character and so on. Base on my results i kinda know that i'm not the person i'm trying to be. Science has always interest me, how things work and so on, but to actually study it is a problem for me. I always thought that mayb i'm slow or something, but the results shows that i'm not fit to b a scientist of any kind. Complicated calculations and terms of principles and etc just don't go into my head as easily as others do. Science also requires pin point accuracy to prove/make something right, and it is that accuracy i do not have.

So, this leads to....

Form 6 =====>SCIENCE
|
===========>ARTS

Yes, I'm considering of going to Art class. I may not like it, but anyhow it would b easier for me to study and prove of some use in earning money. Who knows i might like mandarin literature XD

Besides that, I also realize i have wasted much time on waiting for my results and did nothing. So I'm gonna realize all the stuff that i want to do.

1st: Learning how to drive
2nd: Learn something new [break dancing?]
3rd: Reshape my body [XD i look terrible]

the 1st 2 things might use up all the remaining holidays i have, so its just right for my form 6 class XD the 3rd thing.... well... lets just hope my body shape wont get worst =)

Reminiscence I

2008-02-21T06:59:00.000-08:00

Lately I lost a friend that was dear to me,
We met, we part as if we weren't meant to be.
I wish I could have prevented all this.
So our friendship would still remain a bliss.

With each passing day, my heart aches more,
Like a shower of spears penetrating through my core.
To sense your happiness without my presence,
that will forever be a memorable lesson. [edited by Edwin]

Gossips and rumors were always there,
But I didn't think it would have gotten anywhere.
So if you could put aside all sorrow and pain,
I would shorten my life to be your friend again.

Pleasant Dreams

2008-02-14T05:33:00.000-08:00

I cant really remember which day was it, but i think it was Tuesday. That was one of those days i really slept well... and had a really nice dream, well a soothing one at least. The dream was a very simple 1 and i just remember the pleasant part lol, the rest kinda 4got @.@

Its like this, i had a misunderstanding with some1 that was very close to me... I used to go to the person's house quite often to visit and and chat. Often talk abt problems that the person had and try to help out if possible. Basically we're very close friends... But somehow we stop communicating... Mayb i was the one who neglected the person, didnt talk, call, sms or anything as i was too busy or emo-ing... So when i finally came to my senses, it was too late. The friendship between us has a gap between it, and soon there was no more talking between us. I tried to rekindle our friendship by giving something on the person's birthday, sending a message to apologize and both i send it personally to the person's house, yet there was no reply at all....

Now for the dream. I dreamed that the person's blog finally got my link on it [those blogger's name that link to their blogs] which it didnt at first. My name was the second in the list [the first was also one of my close friends ^^] . And i overheard the person that the first few names in the bloggers list were considered VERY VERY IMPORTANT persons, like best friends or friends that can pour out their hearts to. After hearing this i was super glad, like a boulder lifted off my shoulder. After all the time that have passed, we finally can talk to each other again... Before my dream can proceed, something woke me up. I was smiling while waking up, heart felt so relieved... and finally i realize it was just a dream...

Though it was just a dream, i really love it. I mean how many dreams are there that makes u smile when u wake up?? I think less than 10 in my whole life... Now, i only hope that dream can come true....

26 of Jan 2008

2008-01-27T19:39:00.000-08:00

So today we went to sunway pyramid to celebrate 5 ppl's birthday, though 1 couldn't make it =(
The candidate for the birthday celebration is...

No.1 Cheah Sher Mann *applause*
No.2 Nicholas Yap *people screaming their heads off*
No.3 Ling Sie Lein *wondering why nobody in starbucks came, its just a few minutes walk*
No.4 Lim Seou Yuen *waving to the crowd like a princess(ahem....)*

and last but not least

No.5 Lim Hern Ee *went to the toilet last minute -.- (all of us tot u wanna run away)*

wahahaha so here are all the birthday boys and gal. Actually... if it wasnt for the movie Gabriel(which i told Gabriel Lim abt it) we wouldnt be at Sunway Pyramid at all.... so.... if i didnt tell gabriel abt it, then we wouldnt be there would me? wahahaha, so every1 thank me!!! XD but i'm sure that u guys(including me) will do something to celebrate our beloved buddies birthday ^^

and sorry sie lein abt the new highlight on ur hair hehehe, its hollie's idea, i tried to stop her but she was too great >.< hahaha.... If i knew that the cake prepared by TGI was bad... i wouldnt have hesitated to use the cake to smirk on ALL UR FACES!!! wahaha

After the celebration, we went to pat's house and watch game plan, a very nice movie, funny and touching. How i wish i'm as rich as Joe Kingman XD his house rox.

Laziness

2008-01-24T04:37:00.000-08:00

Sorry for making u guys wait, but i'm just too lazy to do any updates on the blog... even though i have so much free time now... lots of stuff i want to blog, like abt x'mas, new year and so on but as i drag more and more the feeling of blogging slowly fades away... any suggestion in helping me update my blog? ways of bloggin etc any comments are welcomed ^^

Pangkor trip

2007-12-23T06:18:00.001-08:00

After my Langkawi trip with 5S1, i had another trip with my school band, and thats PANGKOR!!
Still remember very well the pangkor trip in form 3 with hua chern, Seou Yuen, Nicholas and 3A1, it was one of the most interesting and enjoyable trip i ever had (though i got myself wounded)

Day 1

Jungle Trekking
The 1st activity we had was jungle trekking and is the 2nd time for me.( 1st was in taman negara and was way too small to remember the details) It was drizzling while we walk thru the forest, making it harder for us to walk around. The floor was muddy and slippery, quite a number of ppl dirtied their pants coz they slipped and fell. Sadly we didnt manage to see any wild life creatures like snakes, wild hogs and not even birds i think, it was just us humans and insects... We helped each other in getting up and down the hills, the ppl that offered help to me was boon sim and boon keat and gabriel that help me keep up with the rest while we were a bit behind.

Sea Rafting

After we got out of the jungle, there were ropes, logs and floats waiting for us... we had to make RAFTS!!!!Weeeeeee!!!! We were divided into 5 groups and my group only consists of guys and form 5s plus Kah Sui. We were the 1st to finish the raft and test the waters. Sie Lein forgot abt his hand phone and the salty sea water spoiled it =( After each group have finished their rafts, all of us set SAIL!!!! Sailing thru the sea waters while it was raining was quite fun! Bcoz our group only consists of males and we had macho man Kah Sui to help us, we were the 1st to reach the other shore xD

After sea rafting we were all dead tired... whole body soaking wet... shoes full of dirt and mud... plus it was RAINING!!! And the chalet was LOUSY!!

Roof got hole
The air cond was removed
Strange smell
Piple leaking
No hangars to hang clothes (luckily me and sher mann brought skipping ropes so we can hang our clothes on the ropes from 1 end to another)
Locked door that dunno leads to where
Not enough bed (AGAIN I NEED TO SQUEEZE WITH PEOPLE WHILE SLEEPING ZZZ)

Still we bath and went for dinner later and it was free and easy. Some went swimming, some played pool, ping-pong, darts and some just walk around the beach and chat. The form 4s gathered at the lobby and play 'Mu4 Tou2 Ren2' which is something like tag but more interesting. I watch them play and took loads of funny photos xD After that went to sleep around 2am...

Day 2

Extreme activities (Flying fox, High/Low V lope)

So after our breakfast, we went for the extreme activities!! Starting with flying fox then crossing a bridge (forgot wat bridge was it called) and last walking on a cable with only vertical ropes hanging parallel to the cable. Flying fox was fun but it ended too fast... just a few secs and ur on the ground again... The 2nd and 3rd 1 however was more difficult. A girl band member took almost half an hour to finish both... all of us were waiting for her... coz the bridge can only support 1 ppl at a time i think. At 1st i tot it was just girls that made them move so slow, but once i reach the 3rd part... my legs were trembling... moved like a turtle also >.< style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">BANG i hit my head... After swimming i went to the pool table and watch them play a bit and went to bed.

And i give up... too much to talk abt... hope some1 can continue for me xD wanna get on with de posting but lazy... so just write till here ba, anything just ask me :P

Langkawi trip

2007-12-23T05:53:00.000-08:00

well its a bit late to post abt this right now but wth, dun care la

the trip was suppose to b 5S1 class trip but there were so little 5S1ians... and a total of 15 members only... (tot it was suppose to be like around 20~30, but hey we get to hang out with every1 xD)

I was so suprised to see wei jian waiting at the terminal coz he said he's not going at 1st , and was the 1st to wait there i think. Since every1 blogged abt it alr i shudnt talk much.

Through out the trip...

1st time experince cockroach in a bus
stay up so late to make a video staring every1 especially KS
squeeze 2 ppl in a seat and sleep at the same time (me and jo yee)
get to know a lot of ppl ( Li Ying, Guo Yaw, Sue Ping, Avery, Brenda and the 3 kings)
made lots of videos (swimming pool and beside the road)
hear Li Ying scold Jeffery with foul language xD
experince Jo Yee and Avery's driving skills
squeeze 6 ppl in a bed (why do i always squeeze with other ppl when it comes to sleep... zzz)
tried to jump start the van which ran out of battery (needed the light from the van coz the so called light house resort did not provide us with enough light to bbq at the beach)

I think thats all... gonna get pictured from jian and de others if possible. Overall i enjoyed the trip coz i can make new friends!! (Guo Yaw & Li Ying) and fill my brain with all kinds of unforgettable moments. ;P

National Parade 1st Rehearsal

2007-08-01T06:32:00.000-07:00

Today I went for the national day parade rehearsal as a reserve, been quite a while since i was a reserve. So woke up around 5am and arrive at school around 6.30. The situation wasn't really in control, most of us didn't know what to do, had to contact quite a few person in the early morning to confirm it.

The afternoon teacher Pn. Faridah came at around 7am i think and says that we need to get going. So both me and Sie Lein went up to the band room and hurried the members down. With just the 2 of us being reserves, a lot of things cant b brought a long. We waited for some members that were on the way to school. 2 of them were lucky to arrive just in time when the bus were about to leave, others were left behind as we were behind schedule.

It took us sometime to find the bloody filed, the instruction gave by the guard at the entrance were not really useful... almost when passed our destination, the stupid signboard that were suppose to guide us were so close to the destination it wouldn't really help at all, and it was blocked by a lorry...

Supprisingly we were the second band to arrive. Met chong hwa members after our arrival. One by one the school started arriving. When all of them arrive, the person in charge gathered us and form a SUPER BIG concert formation.... 63 trumpets.... But 1 thing, even with such a large number playing, the volume is not as big as i expected it to be.

Intonation was horrible.... there was a horrible chord when they played concert Bb... The conductor was lousy... nobody was following his conducting, one reason may be he's too short, the ones at the back cant see him. Lower brass was blasting like hell... esp tubas!!!!

After a while when he knows this is not working, he asked the conductors from each band to come forward and conduct. Gerald was the main conductor while the others from other school were placed at different sides so everyone can see them.

So we kept doing run throughs for dunno how many times till the 1st trumpet was half dead. Everyone was getting bored, the whole morning just keep repeating the same song over and over again...

Finally they dismissed us at aroun 12.45 i think. Pack up everything and went on board the bus. Everyone was dead tired, the bus was so quite, except for the radio, which was quite nice also, made them even sleepier. After giving out some breads and waters to the members, I sat down and look outside the window. Though I didn't perform, I felt tired also... and was tempted to sleep, but as a reserve I told myself i can't sleep, must stay awake.

Arrived at school at 1.33pm. As soon as we step out of the bus, it started to rain... Me and Sie Lein had to take all the stuff and walk in the rain, well i was luckier as Pn. Yeoh sheltered me with her umbrella... left sie lein in the rain... felt so bad.... xD

Free treat for friendship

2007-07-26T07:59:00.000-07:00

well like every other tuesday, me, he and jeff went for accounts tuition. so after the one and a half hour of tuition, we set off to SS2 (i think) and had our dinner there. we stopped infront of KFC and decided what to eat, somehow it bcame a habit that we would stop at that place every time we decide what to eat. Our option would include the following:

1. KFC
2. McD
3. Sun Hin Loong economy rice
4. Prince Cafe
5. Wong Kok Char Chan Teng
6. Kayu Curry House

So on that day we chose KFC(again...) We walked in and heard the staff saying:'Jeffrey.' We werent suprise as jeffrey always like to socialize with ppl, and he got to know a staff from KFC named Ash. When we were ordering our food, we kept hearing the name 'jeffrey' from de other staff while Ash served us at the counter. We didnt bother abt it and continue to order, as we were quite hungry, we bought a regular popcorn chicken and decided to share it, the total amount was RM 33.

we took our food and went upstairs to find seats and had our meal, our popcorn chicken was unavailable at that moment so we had to wait for it. while we were eating, Ash suddenly came over and handed the popcorn chicken with some change in hand. we were confused as she said that we gave and extra RM 9 (i think), and she left and said that the popcorn chicken was free!
we were stunned for a moment, wondering whether we had heard wrongly. we looked at the receit and started calculating for the total amount, and suprisingly the popcorn chicken wasnt added into the bill! it really was free.

we start to wonder why did they gave us a free item? there were a few possibilities

1. they gave us because we were the only customer who ever chat with them in their entire working life
2. jeffrey charmed them with his looks to give us the popcorn free
3. they had a bet on something and whoever who lost/win had to giv a free item to us

another thing that's odd was Ash served the free item to us. She was a CASHIER!! she's suppose to work at the counter to entertain customers, not send food to the customers. so we strongly believe that there was a bet going on and whatever outcome it was, Ash have to serve us with the popcorn chicken. so we had a free regular popcorn chicken!!

After that another staff came, this time with a packet of french fries!!! we were so tempted to take it coz it was under the number that we had when we were waiting for our popcorn chicken. we explained to the staff that it wasnt ours the staff went off.

After that we threw some baskets and stayed at jeffs house till 9 something and went home. we sure hope to have something free again the next time we vist xD

Plain Dead

2007-06-08T08:53:00.000-07:00

This holiday is so dead for me... seriously i dunno what to do with this holiday. I planned to study for this upcoming exam but i really couldnt find the mood to do it...

The 1st week of holiday was better, at least i'm doing something meaningful, taking part in the 2007 drill camp. It wasnt as interesting as the ones i had before, the atmosphere was not really that cheerful, maybe due to the fact that everyone was too tired to joke around. During the drill camp the only thing that kept me awake was doing the formation, lunch, dinner, supper and sectionals. Concert practice was torturing... Everyone was barely able to keep thier eyes open to look at the conductor... A friend of mine nearly dropped his instrument just because he was too sleepy and took a shut eye for a moment...

Meal times were slightly better, i can always hear the sound of group 11, they were the noisiest group ever... The food was quite good, nothing that made us lose our appetite, but i hardly get to enjoy all the food... all because of my ULCER!!!! I accidentally bit my tongue a few days before the camp... eating and playing my instrument was hell of a job...

The camp was tiring but rewarding as well. We were able to achieve most of our aim, but we still cant relax yet, there are still lots to be done. Cant really remember what happened after the camp, i just remembered that i slept quite late the day i return even though i'm super tired after the camp.

The 2nd week of the holiday really makes me feel useless... I have no mood to study at all... every moment i spent at home is really useless... I really felt better when i was in the bandroom, at least i was able to practice, teach my members and etc... i really cant do anyting at home, i either sit in front of the comp or watch tv or just play the piano... and thats all, I CANT STUDY!!!!! The only thing that can make me study is forcing myself to go to the nearby library and sit there with a book. But that hardly helps... just a small portion is able to go into my mind...

EXAM AFTER HOLIDAY SUCKS!!!!!!!

SMILE SMILE!!

2007-05-23T07:08:00.000-07:00

1) Smiling makes you attractive.

We are drawn to people who smile. There is an attraction factor. We want to know a smiling person and figure out what is so good. Frowns, scowls and grimaces all push people away-- but a smile draws them in.

2) Smiling Changes Our Mood

Next time you are feeling down, try putting on a smile. There's a good chance your mood will change for the better. Smiling can trick the body into helping you change your mood.

3) Smiling is Contagious

When someone is smiling they lighten up the room, changes the mood of others, and make things happier. A smiling person brings happiness with them. Smile lots and you will draw people to you.

4) Smiling Relieves Stress

Stress can really show up in our faces. Smiling helps to prevent us from looking tired, worn down, and overwhemled. When you are stressed, take time toput on a smile. The stress should be reduced and you'll be able to take action better.

5)Smiling Boots Your Immune System

Smiling help-s the immune system to work better. When you smile immune functions improves possibly because you are more relaxed. Prevent the flus and colds by smiling.

6) Smiling Lowers Your Blood Pressure

When you smile, there is a measurable reduction in your blood pressure. Give it a try if you have a blood pressure monitor at home. Sit for a few minutes, take a reading.Then smile for a minute and take another reading while still smiling. Do you notice a difference?

7) Smiling Releases Endorphins, Natural Pain Killers and Serotonin

Studies have shown that smiling releases endorphins, natural pain killers and serotonin. Together these three makes us feel good. Smiling is a natural drug.

8) Smiling Lifts the Face and Makes You Look Younger

The muscles we used to smile lift the face, making a person appear younger. Don't go for a face lift, just try smiling your way through the day -- you'll look younger and better.

9) Smiling Makes You Seem Successful

Smiling people appear more confident, are more likely to be promoted, and more likely to be approached. Put on a smile at meetings and appointments and people will react to you differently.

10) Smiling Helps You Stay Positive

Try this test: Smile. Now try to think of something negative without losing the smile. It's hard. When we smile our body is sending the rest of us a message that "Life is Good!" Stay away from depression, stress and worry by smiling.

Well not every point is true, but some really are, especially the 1st one. No one would really approach a guy that's always in a bad mood. Another thing is that smile when it is appropriate, smiling 24/7 and people will think that there's some thing wrong with you. So, let's start smiling everyone!!

The winds of new begining...

2007-05-21T09:09:00.000-07:00

Hello all!! I guess its time to work on my blog... But i dun really know what to write actually... Guess time will tell me what to write... So, lets have fun blogging!! xD

Lately i learn that its not easy to care for someone. You can say that u like him/her very much and is willing to give them your full contribution and try to assist them in what ever way u can. But at the end its still up to the person to accept ur help and contributions. I spent a lot of time trying to help someone, try to open up this person's mind so i'm able to give out more, but every attempt to help this person gives me a cold response. At first i wasnt expecting anything from this person, but as time passes, i lost patience and wish for some better response in return. At the end the response went even colder... i kept wondering... then someone told me this.

People we like may be in need sometimes, but that doesnt mean that we are the right ones to give them help.

Even though u are willing to give, u may not be the right one to give... So for now i'm still holding onto this friendship, and i am still willing to help in anyway i can if that person wants me to. I may be stupid to still treat the person so good after what they did but i'm willing to do so.